SHINee singer Jonghyun’s final message before suicide: ‘the depression finally engulfed me entirely’
The lead singer of top South Korean boy band SHINee died in hospital on Monday in a suicide that robs fans of the globally-famous K-Pop genre of one of its biggest stars
A top K-pop star wrote in a suicide note that he was “broken from inside” and “engulfed” by depression, it emerged Tuesday as his death sent shock waves among fans worldwide.
Kim Jong-hyun, the 27-year-old lead singer known as Jonghyun of the hugely popular K-pop boy band SHINee, was found in a hotel room in the South Korean capital Seoul.
A coal briquette was burning on a frying pan – a common method of self-killing in South Korea, an ultra-competitive society with one of the world’s highest suicide rates.
Jonghyun’s close friend, musician Nain9, released a suicide note on her Instagram account, saying he had asked her to publish the message in the event of his death.
“I am broken from inside. The depression that gnawed on me slowly has finally engulfed me entirely,” it said, adding he “couldn’t defeat it any more”.
“I was so alone,” he went on.
“The act of ending is difficult. I’ve lived until now because of that difficulty.”
“Please tell me I did a good job,” he implored, ending the note with: “You’ve worked hard. You’ve really gone through a lot. Goodbye.”
The five-member SHINee debuted in 2008 and went on to lead the “Korean Wave” that saw South Korean pop culture develop a fan base across Asia and beyond.
Known for peppy songs and carefully-choreographed dance numbers performed with military precision, SHINee have become one of the world’s best-known K-pop acts.
The band have released five albums that swept charts at home and abroad, with some of them reaching Number 1 on the US Billboard World Albums chart.
Jonghyun was seen as a model K-pop celebrity, who boasted flawless singing and dancing skills and rarely made headlines with the romantic relationships, drink-driving or drug use that derailed the careers of many other artists.
He released his first solo album in 2015, topping the Billboard World Albums chart, and performed at solo concerts in Seoul only last week.
K-pop stars undergo cutthroat competition and gruelling years-long training at the hands of their agents, who dictate everything from music style to diet and even mobile phone use.
Many are also under pressure to maintain a squeaky-clean and wholesome image at all times.
A master’s thesis by a prominent Seoul actress in 2009 said that 40 per cent of actors or actresses had considered suicide at least once due to a lack of privacy, online bullying or unstable incomes.
Hundreds of Jonghyun’s tearful fans paid their respects at a mourning altar in the Seoul hospital where his body lay.
“I came here to say the last farewell … since we fans apparently couldn’t be there for him when he needed help most,” said Jung Min-kyung, 19.
“I think our country has very high expectations of celebrities,” she added.
Social media was flooded by thousands of messages of mourning, and in the hours after his death it was the top trending topic on China’s Twitter-like Weibo, with more than 140 million views.
“I really can’t believe that you’re gone,” wrote one poster.
“Wish you can rest in peace in heaven, be an ordinary person in your next life and smile happily.”
China is a major K-pop market and songs written or performed by Jonghyun packed the Korean top 10 charts on Xiami.com, one of the country’s most popular music websites.
Even in the United States, Jonghyun and SHINee were trending on Twitter, and remembrances often intersected with another trending hashtag, #MyMentalHealthIn5Words.
In the Chilean capital Santiago, photos showed throngs of fans sobbing near a makeshift memorial outside the Korean embassy.
Many other K-pop stars in the stable of SHINee’s agents SM Entertainment – which dominates K-pop – cancelled public appearances to visit the mourning altar in Seoul.
Jonghyun’s funeral would be held on Thursday, the firm said in a statement, adding: “Other members of SHINee as well as other artists at our company are all mourning his death amid deep sorrow and shock.”
Seoul police said it seemed “certain” that Jonghyun’s death was a suicide and they planned to close the case without an autopsy as requested by his family.
He was pronounced dead soon after being moved to a hospital.
Authorities were alerted by his sister, after he sent her text messages reading: “This is my last farewell” and “Please let me go and say I did a good job.”
The Washington Post, Agence France-Presse