THE mother of murdered constable Hon Wing-san said yesterday her son had dreamed of joining the Royal Hong Kong Police Force since childhood. Recounting the boy's enthusiasm for television police dramas, Chu Wai-ha, 60, said she remembered him dressing up as a secret investigator with a long coat and a hat. 'When he was a boy he wanted to be a police officer,' said Ms Chu. In Form Five he insisted he was going to join the force, despite concern on her part about the dangers of police life. 'I asked him not to join. But he insisted. Now I regret allowing him to do it. It was like sending him to his death,' she said. Ms Chu and her husband were holidaying in China when their son was shot dead with his own gun while trying to arrest a suspect. They received an urgent message from the police and rushed back to Hong Kong. But it was only when they met a policeman at Hunghom Railway Station that they heard the news their son had been killed. Ms Chu was devastated. 'At first I could not accept reality,' she said, adding that his death still haunted her and she felt she could never recover. 'My son was just a young man who was carrying out his duty as a police officer. It was not necessary for him to lose his life,' Ms Chu added. She said she now lives for her daughter and her grandchildren. Hon, who was single, was the youngest officer in his 40-strong unit. He had only been out of police training school six months. His sub-unit commander, Inspector James Irving-Bell, said: 'He was working very well. He was a good guy with a pleasant character.' Hon's death struck a major blow to morale in the force, said the inspector. In accordance with police procedure, the other officers present at the shooting have attended a group therapy session with a force psychologist. They are now back on duty.