MY DEAR PARENTS . . .

FORGIVE me for not giving you anything in my life . . . I am forced to stay in prison until I am an old man . . . and you would already have departed from this world. In the other world, it will be beautiful and we will be together.

In these past 18 months in prison . . . you have given me your support to live in prison and wait for my release. As for me, I've had enough. I am tired and I need to stop and rest.

Parents, you have no idea what I go through in prison. One day feels like a week and . . . one year feels like 10 years. I feel very sad and I feel like dying. I am going to a place where you cannot come with me.

At my funeral, I want to eat crab, fish and beef noodles and I want to drink beer, wine and Coke. Most of all, I want my dog, Philippe, at my side . . .

I shall return home (in my death) after a week to see you but you need not be afraid . . . I want to see Ms Jessica, she is the only one I loved in my life.

I don't want you to be angry with anyone, it's nobody's fault but my own.