A socialite accused of murdering her Swiss lover broke down after making an emotional appeal to the jury yesterday. Maria Remedios Coady, 43, became so ill following her five-minute address in the Court of First Instance that the trial had to be halted for the day. 'I ought to say this before I die,' said Coady, who faces life in prison if convicted of murder. 'I'd like to say, to read it out loud. This is the most trying and terrifying situation in my life.' Coady claimed she was molested and tortured in custody. The accused, who has worn a bandage on her right eye since last week, claimed that 'officers in the institute' injured her there. 'They handcuffed me like a dog. This is not what I want,' she said in a shaky voice. 'I don't want to lead this kind of life.' Coady said she had written to the Ombudsman, the Correctional Services Commissioner and legislator Emily Lau Wai-hing about her plight in custody. She said the only person who had listened to her was an unnamed judge, whom she had come to know at a social occasion, who visited her in Tai Lam where she was being held. 'It's against his position but still he comes to visit me . . . it's human.' Coady, a fashion designer, 'grieved' over her loss of 'everything I have worked for for 20 years . . . to have a good name in society, to make a name'. Coady, alias Veronique Anderson, denies stabbing Gregoire Daniel Weil, 42, to death in their rented Wan Chai flat on December 20, 1997. 'Members of the jury, if I have to give my life to Gregoire, I would,' she said. 'Members of the jury, help me please.' The accused broke down in tears before the jury was asked to briefly re cess. When jurors returned 30 minutes later, Coady was not in the dock. Mrs Justice Verina Bokhary told the court that 'the accused is not feeling well' and adjourned the case to February 25.