A schoolgirl told a court yesterday she continued to see her badminton coach because she wanted to kill him in revenge after he allegedly raped her. The girl was explaining to the Court of First Instance why she continued to see Tam Chi-shing despite claiming he had raped her twice - in September 1997 and again in June 1998. She was 13 at the time of the first alleged rape. The girl admitted to having sex with Tam in a hotel on more than one occasion last year, but told defence counsel Jeremy Cheung Man-fai: 'I had another purpose for gaining his confidence in 1999.' Mr Cheung did not ask for details, but suggested that she had been deeply in love with Tam at the time of the hotel incidents. The girl, now 16, replied: 'I disagree. Every time I returned home I would cry while taking a bath, looking at myself in the mirror.' Tam, 30, is accused of twice raping the girl and of taking her for an abortion in July 1998. He is also accused of raping another girl, 13, three times in 1998 and molesting a third, 14, three times in 1997. He denies all of the charges. However, he has admitted three counts of unlawful sexual intercourse with a girl under 16, with two of the charges relating to the incidents at the hotel. 'If you were unhappy, why did you go along with him?' prosecutor Andrew Raffell asked the schoolgirl testifying yesterday. 'I heard some very bad news in September 1998. My good friend told me that Tam Chi-shing indecently assaulted her,' she said. 'I felt that I had done her wrong because she only came to know Tam Chi-shing because of me.' Tam has not been charged with any offence in relation to the girl's friend. The girl said she started to hate Tam after learning of her friend's allegations, coupled with her own experiences. 'I hated this person very much, but I could not tell this matter to anybody or my mother,' she said. 'I did not want anyone to know that such things had happened to me. 'I wanted to handle this myself. My feelings were that if I stayed together with him, I could find a chance to take revenge. It had occurred to me that I should kill him, but I did not do so because I was not brave enough.' The other reason for maintaining the relationship, the girl said, was because she feared that Tam would tell her school teacher she had played truant. She said Tam had on several occasions driven to her school, pretended to be her father and asked her to be excused on sick leave. But the girl said they had actually gone to his home and had sex on some of the occasions. The girl told Mr Raffell that she had written her impressions of Tam in her diary in early September 1997, before the first alleged rape. 'He often asked me if I liked him or missed him. I found it annoying, I didn't find it this way. He kissed me again. I found it disgusting. I really wanted to tell him it was just his wishful thinking. But if I had said so, I probably could not have played badminton any more. I kept staying away from him. I didn't know what to do.' The trial, before Deputy Judge Peter Longley, will continue on Monday.