'No matter how someone describes it, you'll never understand even a thousandth of what it's like. My life changed forever that day. I want it back.'
Confined to her hospital bed for more than a month, 50-year-old Hilla's eyes radiate anger and distrust.
Standing near a suicide bomber who detonated his device in Tel Aviv's Central bus station in April, she was electrocuted and suffered a punctured lung, damaged intestines and paralysis when a steel girder penetrated her left leg.
Injuries notwithstanding, Hilla lives in a crime-infested Tel Aviv neighbourhood and works as a cleaner to support her three daughters while her husband serves a jail term.
Now she is unable to support her children and her employer is refusing severance pay, claiming victims of terror are government wards.
Enter the director of Israel's Victims of Terror Project, Rabbi Menahem Kutner, who is overseeing a network of more than 1,000 volunteers who spring into action after a suicide bombing.