Still unable to believe her son is a violent person even after hearing him described in court as a serial killer, Tsui Po-ko's mother yesterday urged family members of his alleged victims to find the strength to carry on. 'Everyone experiences extreme suffering,' Cheung Wai-mei said, when asked if she had a message for the other families. 'I hope all people who go through such pain can lay down their burdens and live their lives strongly,' she said, fighting back tears outside the inquest courtroom. Earlier, she had bowed her head and wept as the jury announced the verdict at the end of the 37-day hearing. At one point, she was crying so hard that she had to cover her whole face with a handkerchief. 'I feel very miserable but I respect the court's and the jury's decision. I accept it painfully,' she said afterwards, vowing that she and Tsui's wife and daughter would stick together and saying she hoped to resume a normal life soon. Though it is more than a year since Tsui died, his mother still dreams about him coming back. 'He always says 'Mama, I'm back,' in my dreams. My granddaughter also dreamed about her dad and told me that he played with her,' she said, adding that the little girl was told about her father's death a few days after the shoot-out. 'He never fought with anyone since he was very small,' she said of Tsui. 'I really can't believe [he is violent]. I am so afraid.' Ms Cheung, who attended the inquest regularly from March 15, said she often wondered why she did so. As she boarded the MTR to travel from Tung Chung to the court in Sai Wan Ho, she would ask herself, 'What am I doing?' Her answer was: 'My son was being sent to the scaffold. As his mother, I had to support him.' She had lost a lot of weight since the shoot-out, she said. 'It is a very difficult year. I hope it will be behind us soon.' Asked if she was concerned about the family possibly facing civil claims against Tsui's estate, she said: 'No, I lost my son. It is a bigger concern, right?' Ms Cheung has been helping residents at an elderly home since 2004, and wants to do more volunteer work now. 'I feel the work helps me a lot,' she said. A staunch Buddhist, she said the family had decided to face the incident positively. 'To die is easy but to live is hard. Be it a good or a bad life, we have to face it.'