'If the clock could roll back 13 years and let me choose my other half again, I would still choose him.' With these loyal words Li Po-ling, wife of Tsui Po-ko, closed a letter of thanks to her supporters yesterday. Even after hearing her late husband described as a 'rogue cop' and 'serial killer', even after an inquest verdict that found he unlawfully killed two fellow policemen and a bank guard, Ms Li said she had 'no regrets' about the marriage. 'I really feel it was satisfying, unforgettable ... I deeply admire his many virtues, his passion for freedom, enthusiasm in sports, helpfulness, his care for his family, his proactiveness, his love of reading, interest in exploring new things and interaction with the natural environment,' she wrote. 'Now they will all be memories in my mind.' She begins the 11/2-page letter, written in Chinese, by saying the three women in Tsui's family, his mother, wife and daughter, had been thrown into a bottomless abyss since the shoot-out in a Tsim Sha Tsui underpass in March last year. 'We experienced days of panic, helplessness, depression, and extreme sorrow,' she said. They could only cry and found no escape from misery. 'However, we had wholehearted help from people around us, including relatives, friends, neighbours and security guards. Some anonymous people also showed us support by placing money, greeting letters and cards in our mailbox. Various voluntary groups also sent us greetings. All these offered this miserable family emotional support,' she wrote. She also highlighted the fact that even though the family advised people not to attend Tsui's funeral, more than 150 had attended to bid him a last farewell. She also extended thanks to solicitor Daniel Wong Kwok-tung and barrister Arthur Yip Chi-ho, who helped the family voluntarily at the inquest, and members of the media. 'We will remember from the bottom of our hearts the encouragement from various parties to the three of us during this dark period. It brings us the heartfelt warmth that can help us to continue to live on stronger.'