It is not often a top bureaucrat in Singapore publicly discloses personal vulnerabilities, but the coronavirus pandemic is upending what is seldom discussed outside close circles. Chng Kai Fong, managing director of the island’s Economic Development Board (EDB) and a former top aide to Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong , opened up about his mental health struggle during the pandemic at a technology conference held virtually on Sunday. Chng began his online panel at the She Loves Tech conference by describing 2020 as “an unprecedented year in terms of personal crisis”. In April, he lost his brother-in-law to cancer, while a close family member is going through serious mental health issues, he said. He described his emotional and mental state as one he had never experienced in over 40 years of life. “There was this feeling of heat and anger starting with palms and then sort of moves towards your entire body,” Chng said. “There was one day when I couldn’t even wake up; I had to really drag myself out at 11.30am and go for a run because I knew these were signs of depressive bouts. Even during the run, I was super breathless. It was a bad sign.” Acknowledge that it’s OK not to be OK Chng Kai Fong, managing director of Singapore’s Economic Development Board He is not alone. More employees in Asia are reporting high stress levels since the start of the pandemic, according to a Mercer survey published last month. It said the percentage of senior management who reported experiencing high levels of stress jumped from 9 per cent to 33 per cent. Chng is part of the leadership team in the Singapore agency charged with promoting growth and positioning the city state as a global centre for business. The EDB pulled in S$15.2 billion (US$11.3 billion) in investment commitments from overseas companies such as Micron Technology Inc in 2019. He was principal private secretary to the prime minister for three years before joining the EDB in 2017. For young Asians, coronavirus defines bleak era of lost careers Chng said that while it would always take time to heal from such situations, he decided to openly share his experience with others who might be facing mounting pressure to lead during times of fear and uncertainty. One thing that helped him cope is to “acknowledge that it’s OK not to be OK”, he said. Another was to proactively seek help. “In a normal work situation, everyone puts on their game face, everyone puts on a jacket,” Chng said. “But Zoom gives you a window, that intersection between personal and business”, showing children and pets in the background, he added. “We can do a lot more as leaders to acknowledge that and to share a little bit more about ourselves. And that builds trust.”